Saturday, 22 July 2017

Worthless!

Suddenly, one day you realize your value in their eyes. Worthless it is! A sudden moment of realisation where the thought of being taken for granted cross your mind and all the past behaviours starts to fall in place.   The moment when you realise that what you considered important or prioritised over others don't even understand the value of the time, feelings you invested in them. And, all those years of turmoil, dedication seemed worthless. Your worth becomes worthless in your own eyes. And, it happens in a fraction of second, a second that helps you clear the thin layer of assumptions that you have formed over the years.

बात ये नहीं थी की साथ उसने छोड़ दिया, बात सिर्फ इतनी सी थी की वो साथ कभी था ही नहीं।

बात ये नहीं की समझती मैं थी हमेशा,
बात सिर्फ इतनी सी थी के उसने कभी समझा ही नहीं।

बात ये नहीं थी की उसके विश्वास तोडा,
बात सिर्फ ये थी की विश्वास जो मेने किया वो उस तरफ से कभी था ही नहीं।

Friday, 7 July 2017

Places like this!

Yes, I am from a generation that prefers night outs, loud music, drenching in the sweat while dancing on those funky fashionable songs. But, I still prefer sitting at a place like this, with a person, talking to him/her, knowing about him/her sipping the freshly brewed coffee, inhaling all the positivity that comes from conversations that take place at places like this. 
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I belong to that generation that I won't mind even if I am sitting here with a book, knowing its characters, falling in love with the people in the book, appreciating the words, living a life that the author wanted his/her reader to go through.
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Also, if not with a book or a person to talk to, trust me minding here sitting alone will be the last thought that will come up in my head. Appreciating the flavor of the coffee, observing people around and falling in love with my solitude will be my preference because I don't belong to a generation of parties, I belong to a generation of conversations, patience, and solitude.

Wednesday, 31 May 2017

A pinch of kindness is key!

You know, it is easy to create a life that reflects your values and satisfies your achievements but tough to create one that satisfies your soul. In a society that promotes rapacity to be the symbol of having a good life, a man waking up, going for his job working hard to fulfill his greeds is considered to be living at the maximum. But trust me, a pinch of kindness and a touch of love is all all you need to satisfy your soul.
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In this culture that promotes avarice, someone who tries to diverge from the path taken by all, someone who tries to take up an undemanding job and that someone who leaves no opportunity to pursue his interest and passion is considered insane. But you, you, ........... you are not insane. And, if you chose the later one, the world might not support you, but the satisfaction that will emerge from the inside of your soul will be enough, satisfactory enough, to lead a lovely life.
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You will be told that a person who abandons to stay home and raise children is considered not to be living aptly, but no, you have to show them that if living alone and not coming back home every night makes you feel alive, you will do it because you don't want to sell your happiness at the cost of their satisfaction.
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It is not easy to realise and find out the meaning of your own life, but its allowed because being happy and contended in trouble and confusion is a better than being restless with all the money and a 'perfect life' the society will force on you.
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Go ahead and live your life the way you want to.

Tuesday, 16 May 2017

Jouska-My favourite emotion!

While the world appreciated the talkitive ones, the silent ones suffered!
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Assumptions, you see!
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The silent minds might have the deepest of conversations taking place in them and the loudest of minds could be blank enough to speak out shit!
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Jouska, ever heard of it? Nothing critical, nor difficult to understand, it can be defined as a hypothetical conversation that one compulsively play out in his/her head, an analysis, a cathartic dialogue which serves as a kind of psychological batting cage where one can connect more deeply with people than in everyday life!  Simple, isn't it? And, you took no time, had no second thoughts before saying, why do you stay so quiet?
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Introvert, are you one?
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Not every soul has this power of speaking everything that's there in their mind, everything that lies deep within. Some have this ultimate tendency of playing in their head, playing with conversations, with people, with stories, with life, with confusions, with arguments, with emotions. And, they keep on playing with them untill they pass an emotion, solve or win an argument (not in the real life, but there in their own mind), clarify a confusion, commit a secret, finally bringing their mind at peace.
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No, stop right there! Stop assuming again of jouska being a wierdness that only some have. Each one, I pardon, each one of us have this exceptionally idiotic yet beautiful tendency of feeling and going through this emotion.
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Have you ever though about the statements or points you could have mentioned in an argument that you didn't?
Ever regretted about not saying exactly what you wanted to and thought about it after the heat of the moment was gone?
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Congratulations! You have felt this emotion too. While it is a common emotion for some, jouska has been a best friend emotion for those who sit silently having thousands of conversations taking place in their mind. The conversations that never take place and never will! The conversations that will remain just there, piled up in the lockers of their brain. And, heart! And, you will again give no second thought before assuming and asking, why do you stay so quiet?
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कुछ इस तरह आज मेरी कलम एक बार फिर चंद खाली पन्नों पे वो सब लिख गई जो बातें मेरी जुबां पर आ न सकी।
फ़िर क्या था, हँसने की खिलखिलाहट भी थी और चीखों का शोर भी पर एक बार फिर, आवाज़ नहीं आई।
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My mind wander, my words ponder,
And, hundreds of conversations take place in my mind silently!

Thursday, 11 May 2017

Talk to me!

Today, let yourself wander in the depths of your mind and let your heart do the talking. For once, don't stop it. Just don't. For this time, let it cry out loud, let your tears do the talking. For once, let all that lies there deep within, yes there, in the corner, no a bit more deeper, let it come out.
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For now, spill all that's been piling up since long.
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Let it flow,
let it grow,
don't be shy,
let it die!
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For once and for all, just talk to me. For once and for all, just let me see. For once and for us, let your heart wander, for once and for us, let your heart do the talking!
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वो कील चुबते है तब तक, जेबो में रखते है जब तक!
ज़रा बहार निकालकर तोह देखो, दर्द कम न हुआ तो कहना!!!